"Lolita" Part 2 Blog

Throughout the reading for "Lolita" this time I felt I could understand the reading better.  I was able to understand what Humbert was trying to get across, instead of just being disgusted.  When he says, " I had stolen the honey of a spasm without impairing the morals of a minor."(page 62) I felt he was saying he was pleased with himself and making himself happy when being with Lolita, but did so by not harming the child.  Then Humbert goes into talking about Lolita going off to camp.  He says, "for did it not mean I was losing my darling, just when I had secretly made her mine?"(page 63) even though she isn't his in reality he feels Lolita is a part of him and always will be.  He does not want her to be taken out of his life for to long, considering they only have so long before she grows up.

Humbert clearly cares about Lolita more so than just the lust.  He says, "I knew I had fallen in love with Lolita forever; but I also knew she would not be forever Lolita."(page 65).  I feel although Humbert is in love with Lolita he knows one day she will grow up and be just like the other women he sees everyday.  At this point in time he clearly wants to spend his time with Lolita as long as he can.  He will do anything to be close to her, which brings up the next part of the book.  Humbert soon finds out that Charlotte is in love with him.  He sees this as a way to stay close to his Lolita.  Eventhough he does not feel the same about Lolita's mother he knows this is the best he can do for the situation.  He feels if he can't just be with Lolita why not marry her mother so he can still see her everyday.

We can clearly tell he has fallen for Lolita and would not know what to do without her.  He later says, "She swam beside me, a trustful and clumsy seal, and all the logic of passion screamed in my ear: Now is the time!"(page 87).  Humbert has been debating if he should kill Charlotte so he could just be with Lolita.  Although this is what he wants to do he can't go through with it.  He didn't feel things were as hopeless with Charlotte as the other women he has been with.  

Humbert later says, "We are not sex fiends!...We are unhappy, mild, dog-eyed gentlemen,"(page 88).  He is trying to get across to everyone that he and others alike are not as horrible as we think of them.  He is making a rational statement about who he is.  Even though he has this problem he is not in anyway harming or trying to harm the children.  Humbert has fallen in love and just wants to be happy.  If he sees something he wants he will go after it no matter what it takes.  Even though we could see this as wrong he has no problem with it.

Charlotte is soon out of the picture by Humbert's actions and Humbert is free to be with his Lolita.  He is scared however that when he sees Lolita she will have changed.  He calls the camp telling of the mother in the hospital just to allow time for him and Lolita to have time together.  I will be interested to see how their relationship grows and what happens now that the mother is not there.